Sunday, 27 December 2015

Good news... I think

I know my posts lately have been a bit heavy, it's just been an incredibly tough month (or two, or three!) but there is a light.


Among the other stuff I've been worrying about, how I feel about an ex of mine is one of them. I've written a few pieces over the last year about this that are scheduled to appear early 2016, but the basic gist is that I've cared far too much about this one guy.


Today I saw a Facebook post of his. It heavily implies he has a girlfriend. I felt a twinge of jealousy, but no gut wrenching, stabbing fear, envy, despair, etc.


I think, at the very least, I've accepted there is nothing there, even if I've not yet fully moved on. I'm going to be happy for him, while I'm a tiny bit jealous for me.


Of course, for the last month I've become gradually more obsessed with the potential negative outcomes of my hospital visit (it's looming ever closer) and trying to figure out why they could possibly want more blood after reviewing my results from the previous one. It may be that I've run out of space in my head for things to really care about.


By the way; I'm getting physically sick again. I'm afraid this will mean I have problems for the next few days. What a way to spend a holiday.